I used to be a thin person in a fat person's body... Now I'm a not so fat person fighting the fatty inside!

My blog posts are my thoughts and feelings in the ongoing struggle to maintain an arse that fits in a size 12 pair of jeans.

Sunday, 27 March 2011

A little reminder of how far I've come - and how hard we all find it sometimes.

Today my Mum and Dad popped round and my Mum brought a photo of me and her from a few years ago. Her exact words... "I've found a photo that will make you cringe!!" Yeah, it was that bad.

I've just been on the WW boards having a little look round and saw a post which said "I'm ready to be thin now".

I remember saying that too.

"I've tried so hard, for such a long time, so why aren't I thin yet?"

If you've read my biog on here then you'll know it took me two long years to reach goal (after years of failed attempts before) and I never thought I'd get there. No one thought I'd get there to be honest. Both John and my Mum have admitted they never really thought I'd do it. But then why would they? I'd failed so many times before. If I thought about getting to goal myself I didn't really think I'd get that far. I dealt with it one step at a time - a stone or half a stone as a target - because if I'd have thought about it as 4 and a half stone from the beginning it would have seemed completely unachievable.

So now I wish there was some way to show everyone struggling why they should keep going, keep fighting and get where they want to be. There's no way to put into words how much losing the weight changed me. It was like I was locked inside myself because of my size - without any confidence and always wishing to be someone else. Every morning I wake up and can't feel that fog of sadness around me anymore I am grateful.

I know not everyone feels this way about themselves, but I want anyone that does to know that if your weight is the reason then you can find the strength to change yourself. I really hope I don't sound patronising - I'm basing this on the way I felt at my heaviest and so many times when I just wanted to give up and comfort eat it all away.

Please don't give up. The hardest thing is to keep going, but if you can be strong and achieve your goal it could change your life in more ways than you'd ever expect.

Keep smiling :)



  1. Thanks for the inspiration! Hope i can keep on track! x

  2. I always enjoy reading your posts Hannah! You're doing so well to have maintained for over a year now, just goes to show it can be done! Look forward to reading more on the blog soon :)


  3. Just discovered your blog and I love it :) I started WW in Feb and I'm loving the Pro Points plan (I did the old one a few years ago) the weekly bank of points is helping me sooo much!
    I started a blog with a few freinds - http://www.wherearemyknees.blogspot.com/ we are all charting our weight loss/ health and I'm covering WW xx